What a glorious day!

I had the most amazing experience this evening, and I just wanted to share it, as I am practically bursting with happiness. As most of you know, Logan (my brother) and I have been on the outs for years. I mean YEARS. We absolutely hated each other when we were both living at home. After I moved out, we barely tolerated each other. There was no more fighting, but we just ignored each other. No eye contact or anything. Then, as I mature a little bit, I began to direct basic questions at him or join into conversations that he was a part of. He would ignore me completely and act like I hadn't said anything. Then we got to the point that he would answer me, but not look at me while he did it. At that point I actually called him on his birthday even though I was terrified to do it. I felt on top of the world. Before tonight, we were on casual greeting terms. It was really difficult, because I wanted to have a relationship with him, but it's really hard to overcome all those years. Especially since he was was not interested.

But this evening, he sent me a text message. Out of the blue. It read:
Hey sister. I know we have had our issues, but I really miss you. I miss the whole family. I can't wait till the next time we have Thanksgiving.

Honestly, I cried. And as I am writing this, I am tearing up again. I of course responded, and we had a few passed texts. But honestly, I think this is the first time he has instigated a conversation since I was probably 8. Unless you count yelling and name-calling, which I don't. I know how hard it must have been for him to send me that text, and I am so glad he did! I just feel like life is all of a sudden brighter and more hopeful. Honestly, I don't think I knew how much it was hurting me until all of a sudden I feel like it's being resolved.
I just feel so full of love, and it makes me think that this must be how Heavenly Father and Christ feel when we are renewing our relationships with them. I know that I have not been very good at my own relationship with my Heavenly Father, but I am now going to try harder and harder.
There is nothing like the feeling of regaining a loved one, you guys. I have never felt anything so amazing in my life. So, even though I am sure Logan would be mortified if he ever read this, I just had to share and document such a powerful feeling. Don't give up hope. If you keep working at it, even though it seems hopeless, it will come around eventually.
I love you all so much, and I am so grateful for your part in my life. I am sure you don't realize what an impact you have on me, but thanks for being there for me anyway!

Happy Valentine's Day!!

I hope you guys are all having a great Valentine's Day! Jason and I did our V-Day thing last night, hoping to avoid all the crowds. We did pretty good, I think. We went out for dinner, and I just ordered what I wanted and didn't worry about the calories. Which is a big deal for me, especially since I have not been doing as great of a job lately. Anyway, we did that, and it was delicious! Then we went to see "He's Just Not That Into You" which was really sweet of him, since it's a chick flick, and he hates those. It was a cute movie, but I don't highly recommend it. Just an average chick flick. Then we went to get Coldstone, and again, I tried not to worry too much about the calories. Then we came home and watched The Addams Family Values.
I think we have just been in a movie mood lately. We have seen 5 in the last three days. The other one we went to in the theatres was Coraline. And it was AMAZING!! NOT a kids movie, though. It was really creepy, and really really good. Especially the art direction. And we saw it in 3d, which is always cool.
Anyway- just wanted to wish you all a very happy Valentine's Day! You have all my love and good-wishes!

A Heart Full of Love

I just wanted to do a post about my WONDERFUL husband. I know he will never read it, as he could care less about my blog, but I just wanted to share anyway. I can't believe I got so lucky! Especially being married at 19. Scary, seriously scary. Looking back on it, I was WAY too young, but it all worked out. I am just so grateful to him for everything he does for me. I was reading New Moon, and I realized that all the things I like best about Jacob (Yes, I am Team Jacob) are the things I love about Jason! He always makes me laugh. He makes me feel better just by being near him. He is super supportive. He loves me and worships the ground I walk on. He doesn't have any expectations of how I should act or feel, and he loves me just the way I am, problems and everything. I am just so grateful that I have such a wonderful husband who cares so much about me. And works so hard to provide for me. And appreciates that I want to stay home and be a housewife. There aren't many guys I know who would be willing to do that, especially if the wife in question doesn't have any kids. So, I just wanted to let you all know what a great guy he is.